Slack. That’s all I can say about myself and writing on this blog. It just hasn’t been happening. I can’t get motivated or inspired to write anything here. What is wrong? I don’t have any focus. I’m not entirely sure what I want the blog to do if anything at all. It was supposed to be about life in Poland, well, do you really care what goes on here? Do I?
That’s the problem. My motivation to get this blog going has reduced to a few tidbits of nothing. My writing feels fake, dull, and pretentious. I am jeopardizing my own progress by making excuses for not writing what I should be writing.
Recently, there have been days where I feel like stopping completely. That’s right, taking everything I have ever written and throwing it into the fireplace and either giving it up for another activity or starting all over again.
Maybe I’m rushing. I have a tendency to do that with many things in my life. I want results quickly. I want everything to happen right now. At the beginning of the year I set my goals a little bit too high. Okay, I admit. Extremely high. I don’t have the time to achieve them all unless I cut back my sleeping time down to four hours and stop teaching English. That’s not going to happen so I’m going to have to set more realistic goals from now on or stop setting them and actually do something.
So for this week there’s only one goal: Take action by finishing some of the writing projects including queries, outlines, university assignments, novel in progress, that sort of thing. And throwing out anything without future potential to make room for new ideas and projects.
